Strength to live*leave^^

Hello people,two weeks of holiday is almost ends,and back to school's life has just begun,my last school life.Frankly,it's such a God's gift to enter my current school,I feel grateful for this,thanks a lot.I'm really happy to be back.^^

Okay,nowadays Tiu Jia En seriously addicted to what she loves,shame on me.First,anime addicted,2 weeks more to trial but I found La Corda D'oro and I love it.Watch it day and night.Fantasy cures the sorrow.

Next,Euro addicted,suddenly feel like wearing jersey and support Spain team now.Torres the el nino,striker.Buffon the hero,goalkeeper.I really hope to watch any football match now,hahas.I don't even know what cause a free kick or a penalti,I just love the crowd,fake football lover.Never mind,I guess I will be know better on this from time to time.Cheers for balls.^^

One more,coffee addicted?I am sure if you ask me one year ago,but now i am just don't know.Since the 7 Teaspoon Coffee Powder Incident,I had stopped.And recently,my stomach seems accept this back,awesome.It's just a habit.Does caffeine really help to enable me stay awake throughout the nights?No,it doesn't.There's something left in my head.Luckily,I ain't addicted in you.

So now,no more dreaming and be focus.We have reached the time we cannot just keep dreaming,we have reached the time to face the reality.Although academy isn't everything,we should try our best and no regrets too.There are millions of things to bear in mind and below is the short reminders:

-I will never do this again.
-I will never do that anymore.

It is hard.However,whenever I think of this,I will be stronger,so do you.Go on,I'll get the next one.It's heavy,but I can face it on my own,Tiu Jia En.Last words for all,have fun in the last season and good luck chasing your dreams.We all in this together.Cheers.^^

p/s: Goodbye B.doggie Emma.^^ or =),no longer important as no longer different.^^So long.^^

Relax,Refrain then Rebound =)

Greetings.I always type the word s-a-d which means shit.And now I am sad because I am such a s-a-d.Sigh.Sigh.Sigh.I am sorry but to sigh here.No longer optimistic.

Don't feel like want to smile now.Don't feel like want to laugh now,I just want to keep sinking like this.I am dissapointed.I failed to put a smile on my face,so sorry people here.Sorry for spreading negative thought of mine,I miss my positives so.

The word "Haiz" comes since it has been 2 years I never say it out no matter what happen.All the negative words keep floating out from my mind.They seem to hurt me slowly deep inside my heart.You know,I don't like to say the word "loser" because I always believe that there's no win or lose in life.But it's the most suitable word for me.I don't like to say the word "hate"
but I am really hate this.I don't like to say the word "stupid" but it's the best word to describe who am I now.

I did my history paper badly today.Normally,I won't feel so down no matter how aweful I did before.The problem is,how could I analyse the question wrongly?It makes me doubt myself again.The worst thing is not I got wrong,it's about not trying my best.Shame on me.Mama told me,"Never mine,now you go and read the answer and you'll know it forever" when I told her I did my paper wrongly.I felt like crying after listened that,love you mama.I will never do this again.

Sleeping is the best medicine for Tiu Jia En when she's feeling blue,she took a nap for almost 5 hours this afternoon.Then,blogging enables me write it out and gaming makes me feels better.All day long,I let myself to do things out of books.Do all the things I like.Wonderful.Thank god I feel better after that.At least,I can smile now.=)

Okay,please ignore the self-console and complaint part above.It's not good to be followed and it's bad for you and me too.Trials and exam are coming soon.Do your very best and no regret then.Cheers.=)

Although it's just a small test but I still cannot forgive myself for the wrong analyse I've made.Not well-prepared though.Anyway,it's a good lesson for me..hahas.Positives,I'll be back.Bare this in mind,when our mind battery is low,the best way is to relax,refrain then rebound.Don't sink before we rise people.Keep the faith okay?Okay.=)

p/s:Hahas..seriously apologize to you.Thanks for your kind visit and you're just so cute to be loved.B.Kayla doggie.=)Starry starry night..paint your palette blue and grey...Yes,I am happy to be back..yiii=)