Thursday, September 2, 2010

Relax,Refrain then Rebound =)

Greetings.I always type the word s-a-d which means shit.And now I am sad because I am such a s-a-d.Sigh.Sigh.Sigh.I am sorry but to sigh here.No longer optimistic.

Don't feel like want to smile now.Don't feel like want to laugh now,I just want to keep sinking like this.I am dissapointed.I failed to put a smile on my face,so sorry people here.Sorry for spreading negative thought of mine,I miss my positives so.

The word "Haiz" comes since it has been 2 years I never say it out no matter what happen.All the negative words keep floating out from my mind.They seem to hurt me slowly deep inside my heart.You know,I don't like to say the word "loser" because I always believe that there's no win or lose in life.But it's the most suitable word for me.I don't like to say the word "hate"
but I am really hate this.I don't like to say the word "stupid" but it's the best word to describe who am I now.

I did my history paper badly today.Normally,I won't feel so down no matter how aweful I did before.The problem is,how could I analyse the question wrongly?It makes me doubt myself again.The worst thing is not I got wrong,it's about not trying my best.Shame on me.Mama told me,"Never mine,now you go and read the answer and you'll know it forever" when I told her I did my paper wrongly.I felt like crying after listened that,love you mama.I will never do this again.

Sleeping is the best medicine for Tiu Jia En when she's feeling blue,she took a nap for almost 5 hours this afternoon.Then,blogging enables me write it out and gaming makes me feels better.All day long,I let myself to do things out of books.Do all the things I like.Wonderful.Thank god I feel better after that.At least,I can smile now.=)

Okay,please ignore the self-console and complaint part above.It's not good to be followed and it's bad for you and me too.Trials and exam are coming soon.Do your very best and no regret then.Cheers.=)

Although it's just a small test but I still cannot forgive myself for the wrong analyse I've made.Not well-prepared though.Anyway,it's a good lesson for me..hahas.Positives,I'll be back.Bare this in mind,when our mind battery is low,the best way is to relax,refrain then rebound.Don't sink before we rise people.Keep the faith okay?Okay.=)

p/s:Hahas..seriously apologize to you.Thanks for your kind visit and you're just so cute to be loved.B.Kayla doggie.=)Starry starry night..paint your palette blue and grey...Yes,I am happy to be back..yiii=)

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