Strength to live*leave^^

Hello people,two weeks of holiday is almost ends,and back to school's life has just begun,my last school life.Frankly,it's such a God's gift to enter my current school,I feel grateful for this,thanks a lot.I'm really happy to be back.^^

Okay,nowadays Tiu Jia En seriously addicted to what she loves,shame on me.First,anime addicted,2 weeks more to trial but I found La Corda D'oro and I love it.Watch it day and night.Fantasy cures the sorrow.

Next,Euro addicted,suddenly feel like wearing jersey and support Spain team now.Torres the el nino,striker.Buffon the hero,goalkeeper.I really hope to watch any football match now,hahas.I don't even know what cause a free kick or a penalti,I just love the crowd,fake football lover.Never mind,I guess I will be know better on this from time to time.Cheers for balls.^^

One more,coffee addicted?I am sure if you ask me one year ago,but now i am just don't know.Since the 7 Teaspoon Coffee Powder Incident,I had stopped.And recently,my stomach seems accept this back,awesome.It's just a habit.Does caffeine really help to enable me stay awake throughout the nights?No,it doesn't.There's something left in my head.Luckily,I ain't addicted in you.

So now,no more dreaming and be focus.We have reached the time we cannot just keep dreaming,we have reached the time to face the reality.Although academy isn't everything,we should try our best and no regrets too.There are millions of things to bear in mind and below is the short reminders:

-I will never do this again.
-I will never do that anymore.

It is hard.However,whenever I think of this,I will be stronger,so do you.Go on,I'll get the next one.It's heavy,but I can face it on my own,Tiu Jia En.Last words for all,have fun in the last season and good luck chasing your dreams.We all in this together.Cheers.^^

p/s: Goodbye B.doggie Emma.^^ or =),no longer important as no longer different.^^So long.^^

Relax,Refrain then Rebound =)

Greetings.I always type the word s-a-d which means shit.And now I am sad because I am such a s-a-d.Sigh.Sigh.Sigh.I am sorry but to sigh here.No longer optimistic.

Don't feel like want to smile now.Don't feel like want to laugh now,I just want to keep sinking like this.I am dissapointed.I failed to put a smile on my face,so sorry people here.Sorry for spreading negative thought of mine,I miss my positives so.

The word "Haiz" comes since it has been 2 years I never say it out no matter what happen.All the negative words keep floating out from my mind.They seem to hurt me slowly deep inside my heart.You know,I don't like to say the word "loser" because I always believe that there's no win or lose in life.But it's the most suitable word for me.I don't like to say the word "hate"
but I am really hate this.I don't like to say the word "stupid" but it's the best word to describe who am I now.

I did my history paper badly today.Normally,I won't feel so down no matter how aweful I did before.The problem is,how could I analyse the question wrongly?It makes me doubt myself again.The worst thing is not I got wrong,it's about not trying my best.Shame on me.Mama told me,"Never mine,now you go and read the answer and you'll know it forever" when I told her I did my paper wrongly.I felt like crying after listened that,love you mama.I will never do this again.

Sleeping is the best medicine for Tiu Jia En when she's feeling blue,she took a nap for almost 5 hours this afternoon.Then,blogging enables me write it out and gaming makes me feels better.All day long,I let myself to do things out of books.Do all the things I like.Wonderful.Thank god I feel better after that.At least,I can smile now.=)

Okay,please ignore the self-console and complaint part above.It's not good to be followed and it's bad for you and me too.Trials and exam are coming soon.Do your very best and no regret then.Cheers.=)

Although it's just a small test but I still cannot forgive myself for the wrong analyse I've made.Not well-prepared though.Anyway,it's a good lesson for me..hahas.Positives,I'll be back.Bare this in mind,when our mind battery is low,the best way is to relax,refrain then rebound.Don't sink before we rise people.Keep the faith okay?Okay.=)

p/s:Hahas..seriously apologize to you.Thanks for your kind visit and you're just so cute to be loved.B.Kayla doggie.=)Starry starry night..paint your palette blue and grey...Yes,I am happy to be back..yiii=)

Target : 30% =)

Hi B.Dougal doggie,you are cute.It's has been two weeks I last updated here but I just can't feel the time,it's past too fast and I am too slow...sigh.

See,what I have done for this two weeks..or I can sum up with 60% of sleeping,10% of working,10% of studying and 20% of wasting in order to relax.I will never cut the 20% out,nanananana.=)

What makes me frustrated the most is too much of sleep,truly guilty about this.And now I am going to try to drink coffee every night although it has no effect on me at all,at least I try...hahasDear caffeine,please save me,you're good.=)

By the way,thanks to Yinn and Fizaa who wake me up nowadays,appreciate it so much.016-******2,feel free to dial and keep it up please,thank you.=)I wish I can make the 60% to 30% so I can catch up my studies before the test,40% of studying,I am coming to you.Bless me my lord and may the same thing goes to you people here.=)

Another thing,I wonder how to improve my memorising skill,sad to say..Tiu Jia En is kind of forgetful.She always have to revise the same thing all over again and this ruins her..sigh.Can I say the word s-a-d(shit)?Okay,s-a-d.Never mind,I will try my very best then.=)

Hahas one more time to say..s-a-d..okay..I have done this complaint post and feeling better now...yay.So,get back to your books Tiu Jia En.Relax,enjoy your coffee and not too stressed.Tonight,staying alive.Cheers no complain and smile no sigh..remember this...yiii=)

Run=)

Hello people and B.Daphne doggie,I am trying to spend a little bit of my time on updating my blogs,approximately there are two blogs of mine and I chose to update my english's one tonight.First thing to say is I went back to my father's hometown last weekend for my aunt's birhday celebration and my close cousin's wedding,I did enjoy those time with my cousins,I am glad to meet all of them especially grandma,thank god.I am lucky to feel contented.=)

Next,something about studies.By hook or by crook,I must catch up all the syllabus as what I said before this.Unforunately,I failed to stay up the whole night just like what I always do before,is this the sign of getting older?No,it shouldn't be and couldn't be,I am just 19 though...hahas.See,my monthly test starts from 25 August,STPM's trial starts from 20 Sep and the real STPM would be starts fro 22 Nov if not mistaken.Fantastic.I got to start my no-sleep plan since time is running out,I wish to sleep at 3a.m and not before 12a.m,bless me my lord.=)

By the way,I used to receive a job before STPM in order to collect as much as pocket money as I can,I am proud to be like this.Remember not to spend too much Tiu Jia En...hahas.The job starts this Saturday onwards for almost a month.Then,I will fully concentrate on my studies.So,this is my last job during schooling time,I am sure to work it out and enjoy my time,no worries my friends.=)

Ok,almost done.Never give up no matter how hopeless the future would be as failure is only when we're giving up.We may not be the best,but as long as we have tried our best,we're not going to regret later.Nothing much to say,I wonder why the time is running so fast,nothing much to do...except appreciate all the happenings and cherish them,deep inside here,my heart,mind and soul.Really,thanks a lot and it's helpful.May god bless us now and always.Cheers no sigh.=)

Ain't insomniac

Hi B.Angus doggie the bulldog,I am always thinking of owned a pet like you,unfortunately it's just a little bit hard to make it true...sigh.Ok never mind,it's 2:00a.m and I am still awake,I took a long nap during afternoon which is from 4:00p.m till 8:00p.m...I used to make sleeping as one of my way to get myself away from something unpleasant,and it's works.=)

Thank god I did some revision just now,although it's still not enough...but at least I did some,and will be continue later,hahas.Yes,I am going to stay alive tonight,in order to make all my things right,I am not a insomniac though,I am just back to be me.I don't know which subject to be revised later,perhaps will end up with blogging and doing something leisure...but the sure
thing is not going to bed,I love to be like this...once in a while..what a unhealthy habit but twilight really sets me free,and I enjoy this silent night of mine,with my running nose.No frown please.=)

Tonight,only tonight.So sorry to do this but I have to.I wish to dawn on all the question's marks inside my head before it's to late.Frankly,I felt sleepy too..hahas.Bless me.Sunrise is my peace.Take care people.=)

p/s:Suddenly comes this lullaby in my mind..Little Bo Peep has lost her sheeps and doesn't know way to find them...is Little Bo Peep or littleboppee or me?nanananana..=)

My Face,My Book

Ok.first thing,my face got 7 pimples,I am just too free to count them up...hahas=)

Second thing,there are tonnes of books waiting for me to memorise up,basically less than 100 days to STPM,so what Tiu Jia En,do not pressure yourself,just a little bit of worry will do,cheer up candidates=)

Time is limited,it's time not to log in Facebook.com so frequently start from now,I have been spending almost up to 3 hours every alternatively day on it,it is kind of too much for me,so i will try to spend less time on that,not being so addicted to this fantasy boulevard and it's bad to be a stalker too..hahas.Anyhow,I am glad that I didn't addicted in FB's games,if not it may be tougher to quit that.Rather than live in denial,I am going to do the following things listed below in order to occupy my FB's leisure time.

- sleep early=)
- study more=)
- sketch more=)
- signing more=)
- update blog=)
- languages=)
- youtube=)
- pps=)
- paint=)

Dear FB,I am sad to say goodbye too...for cannot always keep in touch with all of you there,please take good care of yourselves no matter how hopeless the life is,I am right beside you now and always.=)It's may be a tough way to go,but for the face's sake,I should sleep early right..and I should spend more time on my books too right...sigh.No,not a sigh Tiu Jia En,should be a great smile alright,yii=).Last thing,I wish to practice all the things I love until perfect too..hahas.So for you,I will choose to miss you.I will be right with you.=)

When all is said and done,it's time to work them out.So do all of you people here,cross your heart to keep it up ok?=)For better or worst,I am still here.Do remember this.Good night people.Good night B.Abbie Doggie.Cheers.=)

Twilight sets me free..Bonne nuit=)

Hello B.Bear Doggie,here am I.Ok first of all,a holy Saturday just gone,I am happy about that as I am not working on weekends start from now.Long time no rest..there are a lot of job offers once I decided temporarily unavailable to work,got Rm100 per day,Rm85 per day and Rm80 per day,which one should I choose huh?My answer would be 2 books per day,which mean revise my STPM syllabus..hahas.But I spent most of my time on sleeping yesterday,or maybe I should say I fell asleep accidentally with holding book style,it's called study failureT_T

My sleeping time is always uncertain,this is the list of my first jobless Saturday:
0900-1445 - slept with PP1
2300-0000 - slept with PP2

Shame on me?Sigh...I should study with a proper position to avoid that..okay never mind..I forgive you Tiu Jia En this time,remember..only this time.Moreover,I am guilty not to attend Sunday's extra class for past few weeks and this will not happen tomorow..hahas=)

By the way brother just came back with surprise,it's grilled chicken wings,Pringles Super Stack and Tan Kim Hock Dodol Durian,thank you gogo and have a nice and safe trip with Sis Huey tommorow,goodbye=)

And now I am awake,the night is still young and here's my schedule:

-post this=)
-eat=)
-relax=)
-study and notes=)

Done.Hopefully all things run well and not to sleep again or it is a day wasted to choose not to work,a big Good Luck to me later,may God bless me.Good night people and Hello Sunday,say yay and enjoy=)